10.12.11

I really enjoyed Sonny's Blues.  I felt that I could sort of relate to some of the emotions he felt.  I have a younger brother and he's no saint.  Sometimes I question my role in is life and am I really fulfilling my part.  Have I contributed to his flaws?  Its a strange emotion and I wish I didn't relate to it.  I also know how that awkwardness feels when being around someone who was just released from prison.  You don't know what to say because you know they don't have much conversation to offer or any new experiences to share.  You don't really want to talk about yours because you don't want to make them feel jealous out of pity.  You kind of just want to forget that they were even gone but they've missed so much that its impossible to avoid the fact that they were.